Family Love

Today has been a pretty standard work day so far, going through the usual routine that I can't stand. I'm not a routine kinda gal, so anything that's a break from it makes the day better. During lunch I got that break that I was hoping for. While sitting in Arby's eating and reading a resume book I purchased earlier this week when my cuz Dwight popped outta nowhere and sat down with me at the table. We talked for a few minutes, just catching up to what each other has been doing since the last time. I'm quite proud of my cuz, he's staying out of trouble, working (and recently had a promotion!), and he's been in his current relationship for about a year. Most importantly he's staying out of trouble, unlike our other first cousin.

He told me about our other cousin, who continuously gets in trouble with the law, and now he's on the most wanted list--again. The last time I saw his face on the news and on the internet, all I could do was shake my head as I began to feel like I was going to cry. Although this is the life that my cousin chose for himself, doesn't mean it's right. He has kids that he needs to take care of, and be an example to. It breaks my heart, knowing that the three of us grew up together, since the three of us went to our Granny's house every weekend, holiday, and just because. As a child, I wouldn't have imagined the drastic differences between us three; it wouldn't have crossed my mind.

I've had plenty of times where I couldn't stand my family, on both my Mom and Dad's sides. Some of the actions that some do made me ashamed to be related to them by blood, and the ongoing, and sometimes unecessary drama made me wanna ask for a new family.

With that being besides the point and off topic, I do want to state that I do love my family, but like anything that you truly care about, you go through a lot of pain. It's just a part of the bargain deal.

*I've decided not to link to my cousin's newstory, just out of love and concern. My intentions aren't to flaunt his bad ways, but hope that he can deviate from any more negative actions. That's my true hope. Time will tell if he decides to do right by his kids, and for respect of his own life. *